A difficult word; hard to define and
Harder to live.
Forgiveness, like acceptance is not
Condoning actions or
Being a doormat.
It is a freedom word, a liberation from the
After-effects of actions that the other may
Have no idea they did or that they
Need to be forgiven for.
So I look in the mirror when I start to think about
It doesn’t hurt.
I look in the mirror and
The times I needed to be
Forgiven and didn’t even know it.
A sly smirk
Or smart word that hurt someone.
I don’t easily remember those.
My memory becomes selective remembering instead
When those happened to me.
When I was hurt.
But behind me, more reflections
Of others- friends and acquaintances,
Strangers and family.
I realize they have often forgiven me.
I hope they have, anyway.
Maybe I will know only when I find it
Possible to forgive others-
So I am not consumed by
Fear, hate or resentment.
As a Christian I wonder then if we Christians really believe that
God truly forgives and
Wipes us white as snow?
Or, worse, that we don’t believe WE are
Forgiven. Scared to come into a holy God’s presence since
We are not worthy. We are NOT worthy.
We are unforgiven.
Then perhaps if we do not believe OUR forgiveness is possible,
How can we even think about
So, we are willing to let God do ALL the
Forgiving of others
While we go on holding tight to the
Grudges and resentments and judgments of others
Waiting for THEM to get their come-uppance.
Yet forgiveness is at the soul-filled center of my faith.
Without it the central doctrines make
To forgive is to affirm life as more
Than a mere possibility-
It is to affirm life as