A Snowed-In Brain
I must admit that I am surprised by my lack of blogging in the past few weeks. I find myself sitting at the computer in the evening staring at the screen and then clicking on Free Cell. I have never been a computer game player. Yet here I am playing solitaire while listening to music from over the Internet.

So what does all that mean? I wish I knew. I am having fun at my new job. I am enjoying not being "on-call" all the time (although that was never a big issue.) It is interesting leaving work at work. I am still struggling through some grief, of course. I get very sad when I think of not being at a denominational meeting that I have been part of for 6 years. Or even our every four year Synod meeting. Sad- not for missing the work that goes on there- but for the people. Yes, even the community of friends who I have been around for many years.

I think I am still absorbing the changes and at the same time figuring out my role and place in the new environment. I am watching and observing- myself and others as I think about my own life from a new angle. I don't think I have any significant insights on any of that yet. Not because I haven't been thinking, but partly because I have been enjoying myself and just doing what I am supposed to be doing. It has been over four weeks now. Four weeks of a lot more daily structure than I am used to, but still structure that one must be a self-starter to survive in. I am not "the leader," or the "CEO" or even a "lead worker." All things I have been for 30 years. I am just a worker.

So that is where I am tonight. I know there will be more coming in the weeks ahead. Perhaps one of these days it will come bursting forth. I know I am interested in what it will mean.