Sometimes I Don't Want To Turn It Over
We did one of those experiential worship experiences together as church planters tonight. It was one of the ones that we've often done at camp, retreats, etc. It is always meaningful. Write down something you want to give up, turn over to God... you know the type of service.

We started it tonight. I knew what we were going to do. There was a nice fire in the fireplace for us to throw the issues into. As the leader gave us the instructions, the issue/concern came right to mind and I wrote it down, fully aware of what I was about to be asked to do.

After a time of silence and prayer, the leader told us to now get up and put it in the fireplace and let God have it.

I didn't want to. I wanted to hold on. If I turn it over, I will lose control and have to at least stop worrying about it.

If I did that, what would I have to worry about?

But I reluctantly got up and did it.

It is amazing how I can be reluctant about things I don't want, but am unwilling to give up. Sometimes I feel I make this being a human being is more more complicated than it needs to be be.

Unchecked Strength
During one of the sessions we had today, a leader made the following comment:

A strength unchecked is a double weakness.

That is one of the important reasons for accountability partners, sponsors, coaches, mentors, even spouses. When we allow the things we do well to go without oversight by others, we become self-centered and the center of attention. It is easy to forget that we are doing this for God or others if we think we are able to do it ourselves. Which is probably why God turns our best sermons into "just okay" when they are delivered, and our last-minute ones into "great sermon today!"

Back Tomorrow
Haven't had much time to get on here and post or surf. Will probably get a chance tomorrow evening.